I’ve been doing some combination of working and going to school for the last 21 years.  It’s true that I am burn out on it all. I am stuck here in a life where I’m expected to find a job I love and work it for the next 20 years.  Fall in love with a successful man, have a couple kids and settle into a nice quiet life. Eventually I would by a cemetery plot and die in the home where I raised my children.  Leaving this world without seeing the rest of it does not seem like a successful life to me.

I want to back pack across Europe,  safari in Africa,  learn history from the locals rather than from a book.  I want to experience life become a citizen of the world. I don’t know where to start.

I was raised with the knowledge of hard work,  family and church.  Right now at this moment none of those things interest me. I need an easy way to make money, I love my family,  always will but unless they are ready to journey with me, we’ll just have to write letters for now. My relationship with God will always be intact,  church can wait.

I don’t know what I will do. I don’t have travel money.  I thought about being a missionary but… I’m not sure.  I could marry rich, I could marry someone from far away or I could make myself comfortable. All I know for sure is that I’ve always been restless.  Some years it’s easier to hide than others, but it’s always been there.

Answers come when we least expect them. I’m expecting an uneventful Sunday tomorrow.